possibly another song??

i really dont know these days

the smell of smoke,
its wrapped itself around all my clothes
i said i'd leave by midnight, but who knows
i layed my inhibitions by the door.
it's not a lot,
this barely conscious confidence, but its all i got
two hours time and im sure i'll have forgot
how predictable i once was.
with all these drinks,
i cant help but be susceptible to think
any chance i had was poured down the sink
until i heard it, that song you always sing.
on the ride home,
you asked me where we should go
so we just drove down that long road
not knowing what's next, but not wanting to know.
my hands were cold,
and them, you didnt have to hold
but my worn out gloves, they had their holes
and your hands, they seem to fit the mold.

i watched the rain tonight

and i dont know whats got into me. but here goes,
oh, and by the way, i have been listening to a lot of the Format and Saves the Day, so that explains the short, choppy ideas i threw together and called a poem. not to mention i was waching the rain last night and, while writing this, let my imagination slip into an indie, teen romance movie-esque scenario so thats what this is sort of.


i go outside
the sky's flashing tonight
the rain it breaks
the barrier ive made
to push people away
i never thought you'd stay
you take a stand
we go running hand in hand
down this glistening street
until our eyes they meet
hearts pumping loud
its getting harder to fight this now
your hand through your hair
and i cant break this stare

kids these days have a lot to learn
but you've made mistakes, now it's my turn.
making contact, and the rush of blood.
i still marvel in this young love.

it lays down its own tracks instead of following the ones already there

we can talk forever
and so many things go unsaid.
what is it i am trying to say?
if it's not my heart, it's my head.
i can't trust either of them anymore,
but since when do they agree.
or perhaps i am under a spell,
did you conjure a potion for me?
i know the one thing i'd like to say,
but would it be ambitious or out of line?
i believe that i will tell you someday
but for now, until that time,
i will always have my pencil ready
for when i finally get the nerve
to write down what i really mean
and have you hear those words.

"can we take the next hour and talk about me" ( the format)

Well, its been another long day of nothing. the only time i do stuff now is in the evenings when all my "working" friends get off of work, ha. but alas, it gives me time to do stuff like this: i wrote another piece today. im thinking it will be my first big hit when im a rock star. "and it will be a slow jam..."

(WARNING!: if you don't like sappyness, you might want to skip over this.)

i keep tripping
with your hands over my eyes
its a windy day
but you say you have a surprise

i reach my hand out
and feel the bark of the tree
you move your hands
and i see the heart around you and me

i wouldn't want to be
anywhere else but here right now
i said yes
and you promised me a vow

i can honestly say
this is the best of all days
in that long October
of cool breezes and summer rays

(break)
and this feeling
it washes over me
im drowning
but at the bottom of the sea
there is you and me
and i am free
its all i need
its all i need

late at night
sometimes, i ask myself how
i could ever be
this lucky, and as happy as i am now

and you're just
over there sitting in your chair
and i can't help
but let my thoughts wander while i stare

but its so hard
not to be distracted by little things you do
my head hurts
because all my thoughts always turn into you

it leaves me lying
quite awake everynight in my bed
one day you'll hear
the music we danced to in my head


im not gonna lie, its a little corny, but hey, it could be a hit right? this is the result of a day spent idle. days like this are always nice, but i will be glad to get out of the house soon. This weekend im actually thinking of visiting huntsville so that will be nice. call me or let me know if you wanna go..

i'll leave you with one more piece (i cant imagine who reads this junk, but ohwell):

this piece is not sappy so dont worry.

i am filled with everything but what i need
where a tree should be standing i am just a seed
day to day, i wonder why we seem to grow apart
but there's no sense in hiding my emotions at the bottom of my heart

taking steps to retrace another's path
recite these lines and take this bath
i say some words and shed a tear,
but what good is love if it grows from fear?

what am i missing? make me whole again!
where ever you are i will sacrificially ascend
but do i have to leave that which i have grown to love?
i'll trust in the words that come from above.

so. if you havent fallen asleep yet, ha, i hope you have a wonderful day.
and you ask me about anything. im a good listener. and its the least i could do if you took the time to read this. okay, im rambling again, sorry, i do that.

byeeeee

Hokay

so, its wednesday.

i have a video from the MEWITHOUTYOU show i went to on monday night.
Consequentially, it was one of the band's (The snake the cross the crown's) drummer's birthday, so at the end of the song instead of "I do not exist" they sing "Happy birthday Mark"
CRAZY, i know! but thats how they roll, just lovin' on ppl. anyways, im rambling now, so here's the link

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-5495908122797368543&hl=en

enjoy!

also, if you are my friend on facebook, and you better be, then i have uploaded a few pictures from the show as well, not very good quality, but i guess its better than nothing, right?

here's a sample:

okay, hope you have a good day!

On a night of little Consequence

...i wrote this on some post-its



and in a means to fix our old ways,
we tend to forget the good in those days;
the things we learned, and that made us laugh.
it may not be what we want, but it's what we have.
i tried to reinvent myself, but what did i change?
not a matter of soul, just some things rearranged.
new hair, new clothes, new jokes, new books
and what am i now but a fish on a hook.
and my life so long-lived in one attitude,
what's one more day locked away in this room?...



Today is turning out to be a fine day. I have no plans whatsoever.